Public Service & Uber; God what are you asking me to do, to be a Donkey?

 I have walked with God, well for as long as I can remember. 

Don’t worry I’ll explain all about the Donkey so please bear with me. 

I found my faith when I was 7, while surviving sexual assault, but that is another story for another day.

In July 2021, I left a contract job with a set income in Public Service because “IT” was killing me & my spirit. 

My Family Doctor, Specialist for SIBO, counselor’s and Psychologist for years have advised me that the stress, business of my life and career was not helping me. 5 years ago, I started praying to God to help me prepare and make changes to live for my health first. Thus, I set out on the plan that I made in prayer. 

I have walked and continue to walk in my work, praying & trying to be the light of God every day.  

The “IT” is and was this confusion from Administrative powers, Government funding, too much talk & less action to help me serve as a Public School Teacher. 

1 counselor, yes I have seen a few, but this 1 told me that my 20+year career is the story of a trailblazer and trailblazers don’t have it easy, they can’t go with the majority because they walk with a higher power who won’t let them. 

I question everything because human and social justice is my burden. This was in January 2020, right before the COVID19 pandemic. I learned that I need to stop questioning my thoughts and rebel-ness against our systems because “If God is with me then who can be against me?” This notion took on a whole new meaning for me.

This was the first time in my life that someone had told me to embrace my rebel and trouble maker spirit. Other’s have said you just need to say NO, just let it go, just teach and then go home. That was killing my spirit, so I kept being me and attending lots of meetings, not all but questioning authority and telling them what I felt was needed or what I have seen that works in my classroom. 

I was advised to take a sabbatical, a year off. That I needed time to re process the last 20 years and to continue writing my story because I feel better when I do, just start getting more of it all out. During the 2020 Pandemic closure, I went back to my journals and started rewriting them to add to my Blog and to create song lyrics out of some of them. 

When I tell my story, I have critics and I have lost some friends too. 

Looking at this as my burden to carry in order to be God’s light. I have bid friends farewell, tried not to harbor hate at them or try to overanalyze our friendship. As a divorce survivor, I have learned to appreciate the relationship, the love and to let the bad go, however, to set boundaries in future relationship opportunities by being more business-like. 

This is my American story or my American tragedy you decide? 

I’m working on writing stories, stories I have started and stopped at different points during my whole little life. When I found out I wasn’t needed to teach at the college nearby the place I moved to in July 2021, I prayed. Why? God why?

My faith has gotten me this far, so what are you wanting from me?

I focus every day now on my healthy life which means exercise & healthy eating for my body first each & everyday. I follow a Lowfodmaps diet and keep a food journal. 

I saw Uber as a way to still serve. 

An opportunity to serve & help people. I’m in control of how I handle every Uber that pins my phone. I accept & serve. 

Uber has app manipulation or manipulates what you get. I found a “UE Secrets” Facebook Page created by Donald Franco who Ubers with his wife. The tips and tricks he has taught our group is awesome, but it angers me that we even have to do it because Uber is not really for the Contractor Courier or the Uber customer. Read that again, if you use UBER, they really do not care about you or the Driver. 

Lastly, at church yesterday, 12-5-21, Central Church @ Florabama, Pastor Rick said, 

“Mary & Joseph didn’t have an Uber, they just had a donkey.”

So my truck and I are just a Donkey this Holiday Season, God I’m listening, send me where I am needed. 

-Rebecca McGrath-Hinkle

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