Chapter 5 & 6

​Chapter 5 

3 days until cruise 

Why am she still single?

Partly because she is not settling or jumping in. She’s trying to build friendship first. She chatted with an IT guy for a few days. Then he just went cold. She sent a message after he didn’t call like he said, that I’m getting ready to go out of town but wanted to check in … that I understand if you are no longer interested in chatting. Left it at that. He had said he was going to call but didn’t. Perhaps she is too nice, she just had to communicate something, but she messaged on the app. 

Then she noticed 4 new likes, 1 guy’s profile says sex, I need lots. Omg seriously? Well no big X on that one. 

She was married to that. She wants more than just sex, is that too much to ask for? 

How many years? How many chats? Ugh 

She still looks in the mirror & says, you are an amazing woman & you deserve an amazing man. Just keep the faith. God are you listening, I’m ready, please send me the one, you know my heart, Amen. 

Her ex husband saw her post about signing a contract for her new job, he sent a message of congratulations with xoxoxo, she didn’t not respond. 

Nothing to say. 

She just keeps putting herself out here in this world. She’s going on her first cruise and first time to the west Caribbean! It’s unbelievable. It has never been part of her story to get to travel like this. She keeps thinking about all the things that can go wrong… as her parents remind her people go missing or fall off the ship. She’s watched the safety videos, packed the motion sickness meds, etc. She is prepared to be as safe as she can, by being aware of her surroundings. 

She has packed & repacked. She wanted adventure & here it is cruise day! 

She had really been busy at work this past month, working 3 part-time jobs but then accepted a new full time position that starts the end of August. 

Chapter 6 

1 Day to Cruise 

3am wake up!

She arrived to airport smoothly, but then realized she didn’t have her phone. In a panic she ask the first person she sees can she use their phone to call her son it must be in car. 

The lady was so nice & handed her her phone. 

She couldn’t remember his cellphone #, ugh… she could only remember her moms. Left a voicemail & sent a text. The gentleman with the lady said what is your son's name on Facebook, I’ll message him. She told him & her son’s profile popped right up. He tried calling on messenger but it would only send message. Then she thanked them for their help. 

She then asked a baggage claim guy to call her mom, who answered & said I’m up & I got it. Then as she stood in a panic, is my phone in my bag? Her son had asked her flight details on the drive & she took it out of her pocket. She opens her small crossbody bag & yup she had shoved the phone in there. Immediately she called her son. I found it in my bag, ugh I thought it fell out of my pocket! He replied, “OK mom cause I wasn’t seeing it.” She then texted her Mom that she found it. 

Omg, there was her brain fog again. Ugh, which doesn’t help her anxiety! She took a deep breath & said girl get yourself together! Thank goodness I found helpful people that allowed me to use their phone. Bag checked & off she was to her first flight, Columbus to Chicago. She got to her gate in Chicago. With no problem, had time to get overpriced tea & oatmeal for $16. Her 5 hour flight to Miami should go well. 

She checked the cruise group page while waiting to board. A guy posted that he was landing at airport about 3:45pm if anyone wants to share an Uber? She checked her arrival time, which was 2:45pm, she thought why not share an Uber. She messaged & sent her cellphone number. 

Why not start to make acquaintances! 

Then message says flight 367 has a gate change.

What that’s my fight ugh B2 to B18…she begans to walk, saying to herself…

Just breathe girl, just breathe!

Ok made it to B18. 

She reminds herself, girl you got this!